The Summer Without You

Psychologists often discuss Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD) in the context of winter darkness, but there is a lesser-known phenomenon of summer depression, often triggered by the heat and the pressure to be happy. When you are missing someone, the ubiquity of other people’s joy acts as a magnifying glass for your absence. You are not just lonely; you are lonely in a room full of people who seem to have cracked the code to happiness that you lost.

There are two types of heat in the world: the heat that nourishes and the heat that exposes. For eighteen years, summer was my season of nourishment. It meant the smell of your coffee mingling with sea salt, the rhythm of your breathing as we watched lightning bugs stitch the dusk together, and the immutable fact that you were on the porch swing with a paperback in your lap. But the summer you left—the summer the calendar kept turning despite the fact that my world had stopped—the heat became a spotlight. It illuminated every empty chair, every silent hallway, every hour that stretched like taffy until it snapped. the summer without you

But the cat was hungry. And feeding it required me to get out of bed before noon. It required me to open the back door, to step into the punishing August light, to pour kibble into a chipped bowl that had once held your chili. The cat did not care about my grief. It only cared about the food. And somehow, that transaction—pure, biological, unpoetic—was the first thing that made sense all summer. There are two types of heat in the

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